So I know it's only been a couple of days but I've already thought of hundreds of ways to change how you feel and all the things that you said, and try to get all this shit out of my head
And if you hear this, when you hear it, I hope to God you fucking hear this
When I was with you I felt fearless, but now I feel like I have a sickness
Then I turn into a mess and all I feel is emptiness
And now I'm sick to death of always falling apart, it seems like everyday I always start thinking about you with this mentality that you've performed your final fatality and gripped my chest, destroyed my heart
You pieced it together, now it's pulled apart
And I gave my best, I gave you all
Did it feel good to watch me stumble and fall?
I hope you know you've got me feeling dead inside
There's nothing left to this, not a piece I could hide
And don't fucking tell me how I'm lucky to lose you and that I'm free
Did I want that? No! I just wanted you with me
I guess I'm not enough, do you even fucking hear me?

I guess I made mistakes, I made my bed
Pushed you away with things I said
And now everyday I wish I was dead
Maybe someday you'll think instead of letting go of everything we had
Maybe it really wasn't that bad
Maybe someday we will come back
Remember we said that this would last?

So what the fuck am I supposed to do?
Pretend this year didn't happen or at least assume that this was all a game?
Do you feel ashamed?
I wish you never even said my fucking name
But at least you only waited a year to love me completely, then disappear
I guess two hours is too long a distance
Not like I matter, not like you'll even miss this
Not like I'm even on your god damn wish list
Not like I even tried to fucking fix this
Now I'll just stay out of your business
Tie weights to myself and swim with the fishes

I know you're sorry, and I could never hate you
But I can't forgive all the shit you put me through
Like letting me go but saying you'll always love me
And now we don't talk, you don't reply to anything
Would it be better if I disappeared? Offed myself now, faced my fear?
Ended my life with a knife, would it be clear that you were my life and now I'm not here?
And how do you expect me to be strong?
Just move on like nothing's wrong when I'm a ticking time bomb
I'm set to explode, corrode, but I'm losing it
And it's hard to disregard that I know you don't give a shit
I thought that I was worth more than an ending, but I guess that in the end you got sick of pretending

I guess I made mistakes, I made my bed
Pushed you away with things I said
And now everyday I wish I was dead
Maybe someday you'll think instead of letting go of everything we had
Maybe it really wasn't that bad
Maybe someday we will come back
Remember we said that this would last?