So I'll be taking my attention away from your direction Away from all the things we used to do And I know that there's some tension And things I don't wanna mention Like that you'd rather be with someone new But maybe it's better if I never see you again, at least for now Cuz I'm pretty sure at this point there is no point I'm not sure how to start fresh and forget that I'm a mess But I'm sure you'll manage now With a sucker punch straight to my gut you took me all the way down You took me all the way down

I hate that he ever made you laugh Made you smile before I had the chance Life is kind of funny cuz it never goes as planned I always wanted you as mine but you fell in the arms of another man And that's something I can't stand I hate that he ever kissed your lips Got to feel the touch of your fingertips When I think about it it makes me feel so sick Seeing you with someone else just makes me feel like shit I wish these thoughts would just quit And I hate that I get so damn jealous I know it's in the past but I just can't help it But I'm stuck wishing I was normal and could let things go But my brain loves pain and let's it all grow so I'll keep it quiet cuz you don't need to know I hate the way you used to look at him Cuz that's exactly how you look at me I know it's not a fair comparison But nothing in the world is fair like it should be I'm angry at everything I hate that you gave him your time Cuz those were two years you should've been mine It's so easy to pretend that everything is fine There's not even a good reason but it just won't leave my mind I'm scared of what else I'll find And I hate that I get so damn jealous I know it's in the past but I just can't help it But I'm stuck wishing I was normal and could let things go But my brain loves pain and let's it all grow so I'll keep it quiet cuz you don't need to know that I'll keep it quiet cuz you don't need to know that I hate that he ever made you laugh

Well I'm afraid that when you leave me I'll be nothing more to you than just a memory Well if that's the case I'll set you free, wait patiently but I will sing of you for eternity And if you start to forget me I'll show you a memory like talking like LSP and getting Biggby And how you laughed at my scrunched up face when I tried coffee It was just so bitter, but you were oh so sweet to me And I would do it all again gladly just to see you smile and hear you say you love me Well, maybe you do, maybe I just don't understand Thought I knew the directions in A2 like the back of my hand and you said "It's okay, little guy, we'll find our way back home" We found our way eventually and didn't feel alone And I can't forget how your eyes change from blue to green And how your fingers fit the spaces directly in between my own I have to say you have grown on me And I'm sorry if that's weird to you but you are all I see Conversations in a car never meant so much to me because we told each other our secrets and what we want to be When I couldn't wait for your birthday to say "I need you to stay, so never go away" Sitting on your floor, whispering so softly "I think I love you" "I think I love you too, darling" You're the softest in the land, something I could never understand Or how you'd watch my band and make as many brownies as we can Sitting through a crowded sea of people who don't mean much to me just to catch a glimpse of you and watch you walk with a degree Nervousness meeting the family Singing "beautifully" to 1D And knowing that this is exactly where I want to be The feeling of my lips pressed against yours So intimate, no longer insecure about anything anymore So when you walk out the door please remember all I've said Don't let me permanently leave your head, because I'm afraid that when you leave me I'll be nothing more to you than just a memory Well if that's the case I'll set you free, wait patiently but I will sing of you for eternity And I'm afraid that when you leave me I'll be nothing more to you than just a memory Well if that's the case I'll set you free, wait patiently but I will love you for eternity And I will love you the way you deserve to be

They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger Well I'm not dead yet, I just don't feel strong And I'm trying to find the will to wait longer But now it seems you've found comfort in the lips of another And I'm just lost, I can't believe that a year of what we had ended within two weeks And I'll crawl on my knees just to attain relief I can't keep this to myself, this constant, never ending grief I can't believe I can't believe that you're with him This isn't fair, I wasn't prepared And I can't believe that I don't fit into A life that we should share, I wasn't prepared And I'm sorry that I lost you because of my blindness Now he'll win you over with overwhelming kindness You'll be his royal highness and he'll take what I want as mine This just didn't go as planned But I'll try not to beg and I will not demand Even though I just don't understand I'll let this go but always know that in my dreams you will be holding my hand but then when reality sets in And all my strength is wearing thin I'll give up and drown myself in my regret as you win And I'll let go and I will not persist And I'll wonder if I will even be missed But I just can't I can't believe that you're with him This isn't fair, I wasn't prepared And I can't believe that I don't fit into A life that we should share, I wasn't prepared And now I, I am just so scared To live this life because it's too much to bare And please don't say goodbye to me I am so scared, I'm just not prepared And I am so scared And I am so scared And I am so scared

So I know it's only been a couple of days but I've already thought of hundreds of ways to change how you feel and all the things that you said, and try to get all this shit out of my head And if you hear this, when you hear it, I hope to God you fucking hear this When I was with you I felt fearless, but now I feel like I have a sickness Then I turn into a mess and all I feel is emptiness And now I'm sick to death of always falling apart, it seems like everyday I always start thinking about you with this mentality that you've performed your final fatality and gripped my chest, destroyed my heart You pieced it together, now it's pulled apart And I gave my best, I gave you all Did it feel good to watch me stumble and fall? I hope you know you've got me feeling dead inside There's nothing left to this, not a piece I could hide And don't fucking tell me how I'm lucky to lose you and that I'm free Did I want that? No! I just wanted you with me I guess I'm not enough, do you even fucking hear me? I guess I made mistakes, I made my bed Pushed you away with things I said And now everyday I wish I was dead Maybe someday you'll think instead of letting go of everything we had Maybe it really wasn't that bad Maybe someday we will come back Remember we said that this would last? So what the fuck am I supposed to do? Pretend this year didn't happen or at least assume that this was all a game? Do you feel ashamed? I wish you never even said my fucking name But at least you only waited a year to love me completely, then disappear I guess two hours is too long a distance Not like I matter, not like you'll even miss this Not like I'm even on your god damn wish list Not like I even tried to fucking fix this Now I'll just stay out of your business Tie weights to myself and swim with the fishes I know you're sorry, and I could never hate you But I can't forgive all the shit you put me through Like letting me go but saying you'll always love me And now we don't talk, you don't reply to anything Would it be better if I disappeared? Offed myself now, faced my fear? Ended my life with a knife, would it be clear that you were my life and now I'm not here? And how do you expect me to be strong? Just move on like nothing's wrong when I'm a ticking time bomb I'm set to explode, corrode, but I'm losing it And it's hard to disregard that I know you don't give a shit I thought that I was worth more than an ending, but I guess that in the end you got sick of pretending I guess I made mistakes, I made my bed Pushed you away with things I said And now everyday I wish I was dead Maybe someday you'll think instead of letting go of everything we had Maybe it really wasn't that bad Maybe someday we will come back Remember we said that this would last?

Well fuck you and your new boyfriend too Enjoy doing the things we used to do I'm glad it was so easy for you to move on Well fuck you, I'm just another guy you screwed and you pretend like you don't have any clue You're so in love now, I am so far gone Don't tell me that you didn't lie when I can see the truth Now you're with him two weeks after you told me I love you And you'll never know how bad you fucked me up I try to make it better by saying to myself enough is enough But I keep waiting for the day when you say you made a mistake But now it's way too late because you are such a fake I'm just the heart you wanted to break Forget me, that's a big possibility Bet all I am is a faded memory I can't believe I gave you my heart Forget me, there's nothing for me to believe Maybe killing myself would be easy You already tore me apart Don't tell me that you didn't lie when I can see the truth Now you're with him two weeks after you told me I love you And you'll never know how bad you fucked me up I try to make it better by saying to myself enough is enough But I keep waiting for the day when you say you made a mistake But now it's way too late because you are such a fake I'm just the heart you wanted to break I'm just the heart you wanted to break

And I'm sitting on my bedroom floor at midnight completely bored Wishing I could fall asleep because I work in eight hours But then when I think I am sure, I remember I am torn Because I cannot believe that she had this power over me And I'm pretty sure that this is a breakup I'm just praying that I'm asleep and that I'll wake up To a text that'll say "good morning babe" maybe even with a smiley face But that's wishful thinking I guess And my friends say that they understand while they message my ex-girlfriend and tell her that they'll always be there So much for so called friendship, guess I forgot what that word meant Maybe I took it too literally But at least she has her dudes on Snapchat Guess that's where the good ones are at Along with the guys that message her and say "Hey" but use five "y"'s so she knows they're serious and committed while I'm still wondering if she loved me or if she didn't And I'm pretty sure that this is a breakup I'm just praying that I'm asleep and that I'll wake up To a text that'll say "good morning babe" maybe even with a smiley face But that's wishful thinking I guess That's wishful thinking at best

I made a promise that I can't keep "But the death of your father still haunts me in my sleep" He made me say that I'd stay away from you so you'd be okay And now this vision seems to be imprinted in the webs we weave that involve you and me I'm trying so hard to stay as far as I can from you, even though it's breaking my heart But I promise to always protect you And we will pull through, Like we always do And I promise to always protect you And we will pull through, Like we always do You said that this is the final time You can't do this anymore, yeah, you made up your mind We'll just go our own ways, but if that means you'll stay safe I'll grit my teeth and I will walk away But I see you on the streets with the rooftops beneath my feet I hope you live your life, I'll try to deal with mine But I can't let go, if it's you I'll follow We can leave the city because I love you and that's all I know And I promise to always protect you And we will pull through, Like we always do And I promise to always protect you And we will pull through, Like we always do No, why did you follow? Why didn't you leave? Because you fell from the towers top and I could not believe all the gears and rubble surrounding you, falling hundreds of feet And as you lay in my arms I begged you to please breathe And now all I see every season, every god damn week is a gravestone that reads Gwendolyn Stacy And I'm starting to think that you would've been happy if you never met me You would've been free And I promised to always protect you But I let you fall to the bottom of the room And I promised to always protect you What did I do? What did I do? And I promised to always protect you But I let you fall to the bottom of the room And I promised to always protect you What did I do? What did I do? And I promised to always protect you But I let you fall to the bottom of the room And I promised to always protect you What did I do? What did I do?

And I would've took you to the place where we first met Where I wore skinny jeans and you wore your letter jacket But you didn't play sports, no you were in the band But after that day I wanted your hand And months crept by as I spent my time pining over you I thought maybe if I tried that I could be your guy and you would want me too And I guess for awhile we felt the same, fantasizing about sharing one name but then we fell a part I should have known from the start I guess I am the one to blame But I had this dream where I asked you to marry me I said "You are the only future I can see" I got down on one knee, said "You're everything I need" I never finished that dream, but I hoped you would agree And I would've taken you to the place where we first met Remembered all the good times that we had spent sitting on those stairs, without worries or cares, but I never thought you'd leave me there Our friends and family would have been holding signs with the letters put in a way that asked you to be mine And I never would have guessed that you would say yes, but I knew that this would be right That's how I wanted to propose But with the way the world works I guess nobody knows if things will stay the same as they are on the first day or if everything begins to change But I had this dream where I asked you to marry me I said "You are the only future I can see" I got down on one knee, said "You're everything I need" I never finished that dream, but I hoped you would agree And I wanted to propose to you Say "I love this and us and I'll always be true" But I can't beg you to stay, and I cannot plead I guess this will always be a dream

Poltergeists, they haunt my mind every night when I think of us The memories turned into ghosts Cuz what we had was alive, but suddenly was lost So now I drive and try to run away from my problems But they don't have a problem keeping up They burrow in, remind me of the sins I have committed Assuring me that all will be forgiven No one plans to fall in love with something they don't understand Sometimes things just happen like that That senseless comfort begins to nestle in and make a home from all your doubt and all you've come to know It's hard to forget the ghosts inside that just refuse to let my mind stay at peace For once I bet things would be better if the ghosts in my head would just let her go But things in life can't always be that simple so I'll pretend for the wellbeing of my family and my friends It's too bad all good things have to end